Lately I have been a having a horrible case of empty womb. Every where I look I see babies. My pinterest is covered with baby advice, my friends are all having kids, facebook may as well be called babybook, and today I got a whole bunch of coupons in the mail for Baby's R us. For some reason getting that book of coupons made me really want to pin my husband down and demand his seed out of fear of being left behind.
Adam has no motivation to have kids anytime in the future. He wants to wait until just the right time, but I am sick of waiting. If I keep waiting for him to say okay let's do it, I am going to wake up with the dried up womb of a post menopausal fifty something with only my dogs to keep me company. I am ready now, so why can't he be too?
According to him, I am not really that ready either, I am just bored. I would be lying if I did not admit that part of me questions my motives as well. Do I want a baby because I think that being a SAHM is my one true calling, or do I want a baby because it is any easy excuse to give up on my career aspirations? Do I even know what it means to be a mom? Do I even know what I am asking for from him? How do you ever really know why you want a baby?
What I do know is that people had better stop pinning, posting and peddling anything baby because my heart cannot take it. Regardless of the why's behind it, I know that I feel the push to have a little Walker baby in my arms and I don't see it going away anytime soon.
I know how you feel! Andy always insisted on waiting until just the "right" moment. Thankfully it did come around eventually. :) Of course, I don't think most guys are ever truly ready for the lifestyle change that comes with a new baby, so sooner or later Adam is just going to have to realize he'll be taking the plunge, like it or not! It's probably better for both of you if you don't drag him into it kicking and screaming, though.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, you are far from old, so definitely don't stress about that part yet!
Thanks Abbie, I honestly think that you guys having a kid will help Adam not be terrified the whole situation
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